Reflections

July 2001
Costa Rica

If I could create my life, what would it look like? I would be happy and healthy. I would be surrounded my people who enjoyed my company and like me for who I was. I would spend my days doing things I enjoyed and would live without regret. I would follow my heart and be true to my voice. I would know love and give it freely. I would have passion in my life and a goal that I worked toward. I would be driven to achieve.
In my perfect life, I would live very much as I do now. I might talk to my friends a little more than I do now, and I might have more money in the bank but I am pretty much where I want to be. I am not sure where my current doubts are coming from, but I think it has to do with being away from home for so long and living with so many other people. I am no longer grounded. All of my normal reflecting points are not available so, I am judging myself from the reactions of people. I am reflecting within myself and like a prism, the light is bouncing from surface to surface. I need to find someone to be a mirror so I can truly see.