Learning

Feb 20, 2000

The world moves slowly, so slowly and you sit and wait hoping that the revolutions will pass faster. Then it starts to spin too fast like a steam roller destroying everything in its path. You are the driver but you can’t seem to remember what buttons to press or which gears to change to make it slow down. Or, is it that you’ve only been pretending to know all along? I feel like I pretend so much in my life. I pretend to know things when I’ve never done them before. I pretend to know what people are thinking when I’ve never experienced what they’re going through. I pretend to know that I will succeed when, really, I have no idea and am frightened beyond belief. What is it that makes me think I will be successful? I think it’s because success breeds further success. I have thrived in the past and therefore, do not doubt that I will do so again. Engrained within me is the belief that I can do anything and be successful. But, it’s important to realize that this doesn’t mean that I don’t get scared. It doesn’t mean that I don’t fall down and get bruised; that I don’t falter. What it means is that I have the strength to pick myself back up, to try again, to learn from my mistakes. And that is what I believe makes me truly successful. I have the confidence to try new things, to make mistakes, to admit my short comings. Learning doesn’t end with school. To learn is to live, to live is to learn.