Today I created a ritual for myself for the first time. Being the spring equinox, and a time of rebirth and growth, I decided to release those thing to which I was holding on that no longer served me. Following the guidance of people in my life, I wrote down those things which keep coming up for me. I see them in dreams. They cross through my thoughts and occupy my brain. They bring up old emotions and make me revisit, relive the trauma over and over. Today I wrote them all down. I went out into the sunny, cold day and started a very small fire in a metal dish. I began by burning some sage and inviting the ancestors. I asked them to support me in releasing that which no longer serves me. I asked them to cleanse my spirit so that I may grow and realize the person I am. After the fire produced flame (I can't say it really 'got started' but there was enough to burn the pieces of paper I had written on), I burned the thoughts and events, one by one, reflecting on each before putting it into the flame. I looked for lessons learned and perspective provided. I looked for the medicine in each situation. I held the medicine and released the pain, trauma and emotion attached to each one. The final thing I released were all the emotions that are holding me back- self hate, control, fear. I then relit the sage and thanked the ancestors for their assistance, and cleared myself of all that I had been holding. Aho.
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